I'm in a Pressure Cooker

Except it's cold in this pressure cooker. I don't know, my schedule is filling up rapidly and none of it with work. I have water therapy on Monday's and Wednesday's and then there is my work out in the gym with an instructor on Friday mornings. I have therapy this Thursday and quite honestly I don't know how many times a month those occur. Then there is my desperate need for a job, Joe and I really need to have our own place - very badly. It's one of the only things I miss about Sacramento.

My Mom Gave Me a Bluetooth

Today was a pretty good day, besides the fact that about everyone in the 907 area code called me this morning and disrupted Joe's and my sleep - thanks for that. But seriously, I have so many medical appointments it's ridiculous. I went to my psyche appt. today with my Dr. who seemed pretty nice. She agreed that I should lose one of my meds completely so I was happy with that, another was increased and there are future plans to lose more meds and achieve my goal to maintain an emotional balance with less medication. Joe was sweet enough to come with me on his last day off, he goes back to the grindstone tomorrow for five very long days. It seems forever with me in this house all alone thinking about and waiting for Joe to return so I can cook him something to eat or show him my love. Winter doesn't help with that, the darker days, the cold, the quiet. I don't mind those things when I am with him but they are ever more pronounced without him.

I also have to return phone calls to the wellness center for physical therapy and water therapy - I don't know what the hell I am supposed to wear in water therapy but it will be a very conservative suit. I hate the water, but I DO want to do what I can to keep my back from hurting so bad that I can hardly stand or bend. Oh and I forgot, I am also keeping therapy appointments as well, blimey. I am going to be one little busy biznitch. Could be good. Rough as hell traveling to the Alaska Native Center and the Wellness Center via the bus, especially since the real winter hasn't even started yet.

But anyway, like I said my mom gave me a blue tooth and it was a booger trying to pair up without a manual but Joe found me one online. Hope it makes life easier, we'll see since my ears are so small it's hard to wear. I might just give it to Joe and get a different model more like a real headset. I dunno.

Meditation

Meditation is part of my therapy - my "mindful" activities. I found this site and absolutely loved it, I also put it on my BlackJack II via the voice recorder so I can listen to it whenever and wherever. Joe and I both enjoy it.