Well, I didn't take the job I was offered. It's really too bad. The job was exactly what I was looking for and it was offered to me on the spot after my interview. Unfortunately, the work hours weren't compatible with the bus schedule en route to home. It would have been two buses and a light rail ride not to mention walking a couple of blocks. I wouldn't have had a hard time getting to work but it's very likely I would miss the last bus to my neighborhood leaving me stranded after an hour of commuting. It's time for me to get a car. If I had a car everything would be fine and finding/accepting work would be a breeze. This really is the longest I have ever been without a job in my life. Sure, I didn't start looking until towards the end of July but still. Weeks are flying by and although I have had interviews (I have one today - wish me luck!) it feels like I may never get a job. Not working was a nice break in the beginning but now I just have a ton of extra energy and I feel restless.
I have felt a lot of stress, anxiety, panic and remorse regarding my personal decisions. However, I remain positive that everything WILL be okay. I did what I had to do and can only push forward. There has been an interesting, unique but wonderful distraction in my life the past couple of weeks. My new friendship with D has been trying & unusual but very rewarding none the less. He has restored many pieces of myself that I never thought I would have again. That probably didn't make much sense to you.
Sunday, I was treated to a very relaxing evening filled with hypnotically calming music, candles, an extensive massage (which was badly needed) and red wine. I have never enjoyed wine before and I was surprised to find out how much I liked it, it must have been the enviroment. It's been awhile since I felt spoiled, it was a good thing.