First of all, thanks to everyone who has come by to wish my health well! It's making a difference just knowing you all care. Some of you may have been coming to my blog long enough to know that I have never been very good at relationships or friendships for that matter. Through much introspection, I have learned I can be quite self centered amongst other things.
In the past, I have often rushed in or missed out on some wonderful friendships/relationships. Currently, I am actually more confused on how TO start, pursue, keep or end these connections. This feeling is also leaking into my behavior with neighbors, interviewers and existing "ships." In fact, it's causing a lot of self doubt. In the past, I had a ton of confidence in dating but a ton of self-esteem issues and now it's all cloudy.
This whole post is really regarding one individual who I am in some kind of "ship" with, it has fluctuated all over the board with a lot of talk regarding wants, friendship, relationships, marriage, children, moving in, dating and quite honestly I am lost. Lately, it seems to hard to decipher what I really DO want out of life and HOW to get it. I never had a mother around to talk to in regards to these matters and wasn't really allowed to date anyhow, so I guess this is my long round about way of asking for some advice.
If anyone has ANY kind of advice regarding friendships, relationships, dating and the fore mentioned please share it with me either via comment or email (it's in the sidebar.) Quite honestly, I need some honest opinions on the do's & don'ts when looking for a long term relationship. Please help! (LoL)