I feel like I am almost wearing myself out more than going to work at a real job. There is laundry to do, errands to run, paperwork, medical bills/house hold bills to deal with, dishes, meals to cook PLUS I should be finding a new job as I am sitting here typing this.
But with all things that have to do with me, I can't because of something else. I was trying to write my new resume for two days now however, I am waiting on when past managers can give me work dates etc since I didn't keep proper records etc. etc.. Which holds me back from actually applying for a new position with any company since my information may not be accurate. Everything takes time no matter how much I push. No matter how hard I try, I am one person and I always seem to be working with one hand tied behind my back.
Sometimes I really wish that I had a significant other, a partner in my life. I don't expect anyone to cater to me or carry my weight, it would just be wonderful to know that someone else had a soft spot in their heart just for me. Sure, I have friends. The church. It's also just not the same. Recently, one of of my Internet friends told me I am hard to console because I am just hard in general. I am tired of being seen as this tough cookie who has been around the block. I tire of carrying the weight of everything on my shoulders. I have been saying all of this for a very long time I know and quite honestly, I don't think it's ever going to change.
It's crazy because so many people in life pretend not to judge, yet they still do. Looking at me, after interacting with me, I feel the personification of who they think I am being forced upon me. It's OK. Someday, someone will see me for who I really am. Anywhoo, I didn't mean to get all weird and "deep" like I do sometimes. I guess I am just frustrated, there is SOO much to do.
I listed some examples of things that I want to sell on eBay and that link is posted to the right under "diary index." I don't really think it's the right forum for what I have (which is invitations, entire party sets, toys, key chains, party favors, party bags, fall related items, garlands, Halloween favors etc) plus the photos which my daughter took on her digicam came out really dark and for some reason I can't get my photo shop to reload with my serial number on my computer to fix it... If you have any suggestions on how I can list these kinds of items for sale please leave me a comment!! Thanks to Christy for explaining the consignment sale to me on your page!
____________________On a Different Note:
I got something really awesome in the mail yesterday! I got the earrings I ordered from Elaine of Oyworks! It really was the highlight of my week! I ordered the awesome "Chip on My Shoulder" earrings and found the other set I was pining over "Center of My Universe" tucked away as a special surprise inside the pretty little brown ribbon wrapped box. - Thanks Elaine for what you said (it was very sweet) and for more of that tea I LOVE - Sausalito Spice MmM! I had some last night and this morning. Thanks again you rock!!