Other Things

Today is day two of three days off. Yesterday I did two loads of laundry (which takes forever at our community laundry mat,) took out the trash (quite a bit of it,) dusted (it's dusty again already,) upgraded our Internet service to unlimited - I had no idea we were limited to 3 gigabytes - how ridiculous. Evidently, we've been doubling that for months. Managed some fiances, played Sims 2 which Joe insists I am "addicted" too and other house hold chores like cooking and dish washing etc. Keeping the house clean is getting to be pretty easy, even with working. Working longer hours is also getting easier. All of these things are good.

Today, there is one more load of laundry that is nearly finished (not counting the six more loads that will not be done this weekend) and many many more tasks I have completed. Like visiting Joe at work 3+ times (not good lol) and vacuuming our astro turf balcony (strange I know) and making doubly delicious grilled cheese sandwiches for his lunch break. I also called my daughter and she is doing great! She spent her first night in her very first apartment last night! It's a spacious 3 bedroom and two bath near the college she enrolled in. It's close to all kinds of stores like Target, Smart & Final and more which is really convenient for her. That makes me happy. It's been a good weekend - how about yours?

I'll Take an Order of Me Scrambled On Toast

Even though I cleaned last nite, I felt there was so much to do when I got up this morning. I was piffed at Joe pretty good so I didn't get up to make him coffee or breakfast. I laid in bed until he left then scrambled to unload the dishwasher (my Aunt hand washes) and hand washed any dishes I deemed unfit (water spots etc.) Then I stripped the bed and started laundry containing her bedding and the towels on the racks. I had washed mats and doilies etc. the nite before so that made it easier. I had also polished the wood in the house (coffee tables and tables) but in the morning light saw smudges that had to be buffed out, I say HAD to be. I don't know why I am freaking out, I suppose because one of the last memories I have of my Aunt is when I spilled red kool-aid on her white carpet after she told me no drinks in the living room. I was a brat then, still a brat at 32 *sigh*

The towels are not finished, I made it to Wednesday which I f*cked up the writing of Wednesday with the puffy paint. The lettering is not clear in the e's or a's and I swear puffy paint was made by the devil himself. And to top it off, I will say as an AA'er (Oh jeez) "Let Go and Let God."

I'm a Flake

I didn't go to my lab appt. this morning. I was supposed to fast including medication and go in with Joe (my sister was going to drop us off) and have more blood drawn. This time not for iron (which the pills for that never arrived in the mail) but to check the levels of the mood stabilizer I take. The psyche doctor just increased it and removed one of my medications completely per my request and her agreeing. Anyway, I am going in tomorrow for sure, same plan.

Today, was just busy with housework, phone calls, job hunting and apartment hunting as well. I like to keep my Aunt's the way she would, it's the only polite thing to do. In respect of that, I did our laundry (not out of respect for my Aunt) and the house laundry like towels/place mats and such. I also did the dishes as everyday and polished all of the tables in her house careful not to leave any smudges. Joe vacuumed and took out the trash, just like he does everyday. It's been nice to have this place all to ourselves, I can't believe how fast 17 days is flying by! Then there were follow up phone calls for an interview at Old Navy and the medical centers for my iron pills and for physical therapy and water therapy. I am still waiting on a referral for complimentary medicine (acupuncture, massage, chiropractor) to be approved.

Then it was time to fold the laundry and make supper for Joe's break. I made my "Suddenly Tuna Salad" as I like to call it and then it was time to say goodbye, only a few minutes for a quick cuddle - boo. Lucky us, his schedule changed and we will be seeing each other tonight at nine instead of ten thirty!

One Hand Behind My Back

I've been trying to use this "free time" to get some of the things in my life done that have been eating away at me for some time. Things like go through bills, sort paperwork, update personal files, create a new resume, clean my room (which could take an extensive amount of time in itself) and just regroup so to speak.

I feel like I am almost wearing myself out more than going to work at a real job. There is laundry to do, errands to run, paperwork, medical bills/house hold bills to deal with, dishes, meals to cook PLUS I should be finding a new job as I am sitting here typing this.

But with all things that have to do with me, I can't because of something else. I was trying to write my new resume for two days now however, I am waiting on when past managers can give me work dates etc since I didn't keep proper records etc. etc.. Which holds me back from actually applying for a new position with any company since my information may not be accurate. Everything takes time no matter how much I push. No matter how hard I try, I am one person and I always seem to be working with one hand tied behind my back.

Sometimes I really wish that I had a significant other, a partner in my life. I don't expect anyone to cater to me or carry my weight, it would just be wonderful to know that someone else had a soft spot in their heart just for me. Sure, I have friends. The church. It's also just not the same. Recently, one of of my Internet friends told me I am hard to console because I am just hard in general. I am tired of being seen as this tough cookie who has been around the block. I tire of carrying the weight of everything on my shoulders. I have been saying all of this for a very long time I know and quite honestly, I don't think it's ever going to change.

It's crazy because so many people in life pretend not to judge, yet they still do. Looking at me, after interacting with me, I feel the personification of who they think I am being forced upon me. It's OK. Someday, someone will see me for who I really am. Anywhoo, I didn't mean to get all weird and "deep" like I do sometimes. I guess I am just frustrated, there is SOO much to do.

I listed some examples of things that I want to sell on eBay and that link is posted to the right under "diary index." I don't really think it's the right forum for what I have (which is invitations, entire party sets, toys, key chains, party favors, party bags, fall related items, garlands, Halloween favors etc) plus the photos which my daughter took on her digicam came out really dark and for some reason I can't get my photo shop to reload with my serial number on my computer to fix it... If you have any suggestions on how I can list these kinds of items for sale please leave me a comment!! Thanks to Christy for explaining the consignment sale to me on your page!

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I got something really awesome in the mail yesterday! I got the earrings I ordered from Elaine of Oyworks! It really was the highlight of my week! I ordered the awesome "Chip on My Shoulder" earrings and found the other set I was pining over "Center of My Universe" tucked away as a special surprise inside the pretty little brown ribbon wrapped box. - Thanks Elaine for what you said (it was very sweet) and for more of that tea I LOVE - Sausalito Spice MmM! I had some last night and this morning. Thanks again you rock!!

Woof!

I'm in the market for a new job. Life as usual is always changing for me. I can hear it now.. wait what no more party store!? Nope. Time to move on. C'est la vie.

In other things, I need to do a deep spring cleaning. I know I talk about this like every year but yes I really need to do it this time too. Ooh, over at Swoozie Ramblings she mentioned something about a spring consigment sale.. is that an internet thing? Christy tell me more about this! LOL I have a ton of stuff from the party store I was going to sell but it hasn't happened yet. I have all kinds of things from invitations, frames, favors, entire table sets... and so much fun stuff.